Friday, July 25, 2008

This is the Season

Two years ago, this was my last day of work until I went inpatient in the hospital hoping to begin the journey of bringing 2 babies home with me. I remember I had just had my steroid shots and I was flying high. I did too much and had to lay down. It was a good thing it was my last day of work. I don't know how much longer I would have handled work.

I remember having all these plans of how I would spend my days in the hospital. I planned on watching the season of BIG Brother. I have to admit I am a reality TV fan and this was a show I could get into and it was on several times a week so I could look forward to it. I planned on learning to make a scarf. I had tons of books and magazines to read. I felt like I would finally get some peace during this pregnancy knowing that the boys could be delivered if a problem arose. I never dreamed their would be a problem. I had every intention on carrying them to at least 32 weeks.

Even though 2 years have passed, I still can bring up every emotion I ever had that year. It was pure hell and yet I would do it all over for the reward was amazing.

These next few months will be full of reflection and gratitude.

Dear God,

Please bless all the momo twins who were born early, all the momo twins still in their mommies bellies and all the babies in the NICU. Amen


angie said...

It's amazing how it doesn't leave you, isn't it? My who experience totally changed me.

Jocasta said...

Thank god for inpatient monitoring!

I thought that once I had the babies the mono journey would be something that I would leave behind. It's only been a year for me but I find myself thinking about it all the time.

Debra said...

It goes by so fast, and yet it doesn't!

Oh and it took me FIVE KIDS to get rid of mother's guilt! LOL

jenni anne said...

two years down, huh? crazy!! i remember when you announced you had your boys and my heart broke, because we had finally gotten through our nicu stage and i knew what you was in store for you. your boys are amazing, and so are you!

Karen said...

Jenni anne, you were such a big help to me through the nicu. I knew you had survived it and that always gave me hope.
I have been waiting for you to update your blog????

girlytwins said...

I can still bring up every emotion too. It was a pretty crazy ride. Sometimes I think I love them too much knowing what we did to get them here...At least they make me feel like I love them too much by running from my 10's of kisses.

Tracy said...

powerful post - especially for us momo moms - we all pause & think back. I join you in your prayer! Blessings to your family.

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